The Brutal Truth

Ok, so I am posting my starting pictures...they are not pretty for me to look at. Normally when I look in the mirror, I see myself and I can see I am beautiful. Now I am not being conceited, I think everyone is beautiful in their own way and all that. But I guess what im trying to say is, is that in a way, even though I see myself, I dont see myself as I look to others. I dont know if that makes sense? Everytime I see myself in pictures, Im like "wow....am I really that huge???" lol yeah...delusional much??lol but today is all about change and so I have taken honest pictures of myself meaning no sucking in the gut, no flattering angles, just straight pictures and here I am....It makes me want to get up and move and do something to change my life even more so I have half a mind to printing them out and taping them above my bed and in the cupboards and fridge lol. as I change ill take more. Ive said this many times before but today I really feel it....I can do this! Oh and I guess I should say that I weighed myself today and I weigh....378.6...so .... no time like the present....lets do this!!!